February 17th, 2015 marked one
month until I go under the knife… and as much as I’ve talked about the fact I’m
nervous and slightly apprehensive about the very quickly approaching date… I
know I’ve got this… I’ve started my pre op appt.’s and blood work which will
continue into the following weeks. I am ensuring my Hemoglobin levels are where
they should be and that I am not anemic.
That the rest of my blood levels are within normal ranges. That my body
is as healthy as possible and I am really trying to lessen my stress level and
get a bit more sleep, to ensure I’m going into this as best prepared as I can
be.
I’m
spending this week spending as much time with my kids as possible, prepping
things that I know I won’t be able to get too, after surgery… Items I want
moved, cleaned and lifted…. shaving the dog… ect. I plan to make more freezer
meals, prep our calendars plan for the unexpected and then some… Laken has
helped me set aside a stool for the jeep which will allow Brett to get in and
out without me lifting her… Along with Laken when he has all his hockey gear,
which he has proudly shown me how well it will work. He’s also demonstrated how
he can climb the counters…. Not so great…
I truly feel blessed that I have an
opportunity to possibly change my future. One that I know would have changed my
grandmothers. To have been born in an era where this is available to me, where
it is an open discussion between my doctors and I and that it wasn’t my only
option to choose from. I am blessed. I
am blessed with friends and family who have been there for wine nights and just
to chat with…. Those who have understood when I’ve felt like I haven’t been
there for them or lacking in the friend department as I navigate through my
crazy life… They’ve been there to share in my frustrations of those who somehow
feel this is in some way about them and give me the extra push of support when
they can tell I’ve needed it.
Most of all I am blessed with an Amazing
husband…. When Mark and I started dating 14 years ago, we were young… really
young. Never in our wildest dreams did we realize that our relationship would
endure so much. I am so grateful that I knew what I had when I found it.. That
for all of the critics who were concerned that even though we had dated for 5
years, been through a horrible accident, two years in a wheel chair, a moments
full of some of the hardest ups and downs… Even though we were so young, we
knew what we wanted out of a marriage, we knew what page we were both on in
regards to where we thought our goals were together, and as individuals. We
knew it was going to be work and that marriage was going to require work…. Did
we envision the number of ups and downs our 14 year relationship and 9 years of
marriage has brought us? No… but who does or has? If I can offer my children anything in the advice
of Marriage, it is… find your best friend…. Someone who can make you laugh and
mad all at the same time.. Someone who is your equal and is always willing to
put in just as much work as you. Someone who will pick up your slack when you
are tired without being resentful, because they know you’ll do the same.
Mark always goes above and beyond.
As a best friend, a husband and a father. He is my other half and I know if I
can’t do something or am falling behind he’s right there behind me, not needing
to ask what it is he can do, he just does it because he already knows… He knows
what has to be done and how I would have done it… That’s where I feel the most
blessed.. For I know it’s not just me that has this but, WE have this, and no
matter how this goes… We’ve got this.
Below
is a brief pre op video explaining some of my options. Those options that are
out there and the great message that things are always changing…. Due to the
risk of the losing my flap after the mastectomy due to the large list of possible
risks and complications. Along with the fact the only specialized surgeon who
is well experienced in my and my surgeon’s eyes is not taking patients
currently. I have opted for spacers and although it’ll be a flat summer… lol I am hopeful by August I will be able to go in
for Day surgery to have my reconstruction done.
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